Problem Solved

Well I crossed the river
Fell into the sea
Where the non-believers
Go beyond belief
Then I scratched the surface
In the mouth of hell
Running out of service
In the blood I fell

-See The Light, Green Day 

Once again I have an exam that I really can't be bothered studying for, so I decided to write a blog about the things I'm supposed to be studying. Luckily for my readers, this time it's Philosophy: The Big Questions and not Latin again.

Personal Identity: What makes us 'us'? What makes us the same person through time? There are a few main theories. The Animal Theory, we're the same animal; the brain theory, we have the same brain; CESINS (Continued Existence of Souls Is Necessary for Survival), we have the same soul; and stream theory, we have psychological continuity (memories, personality, and stuff) with ourselves. The usual problems include things about brain transplants, cyborgs, amnesia, not having a good definition of a soul, and copies of people. I like stream theory, with the revision that any form of copy doesn't count as you. Oh, and there's bundle theory, which states that we have no personal identity, we're just bundles of experiences. It's stupid.

The Good Life: What is the best life for the person living it? Main theories include hedonism, the best life is a happy one (quantitative hedonism = lots of pleasure and not much pain; qualitative hedonism = lots of higher pleasures); objective-list theories, the best life includes having a bunch of stuff on a list (such as mutual love, comfort, health, blah blah blah); desire-fulfillment theory, the best life is getting all your desires fulfilled; and success theory, the best life is getting all your desires about yourself fulfilled. I like hedonism, specifically preference hedonism, which states that the best life is one in which you're happy because you get lots of the types of pleasures you prefer and little pain.

The Meaning of Life: This one's obvious. There can be no objective meaning of life, nothing means anything in the long run because nothing lasts. Lots of people try to argue for subjective meaning, but that means nothing to anyone else. So, do whatever the hell you want with your life. It won't matter when you're gone, but you won't care once you're dead anyway. Take life as seriously as you want, and make up your own meaning if you feel the need to.

The Philosophy of Religion: Does God exist? The most important argument here is the ontological argument: We can conceive of something greater than anything else we can conceive of; therefore this thing exists at least in understanding; things that exist in reality are greater than things that only exist in understanding; if this thing didn't exist in reality we could conceive of something greater than it (that thing in reality); therefore this thing exists and is God. Just, no. You can't prove that something exists by playing with words (try replacing thing with island). There are other arguments based on the fact that something had to be the first cause of changes, something has to be the 'best' thing ever, and something has to direct all the non-sentient things (such as plants) towards their goals. I don't see why something has to be the 'best' of anything or how it leads to God. I also don't see how evolution can't explain everything else. Why can't the universe have evolved like everything else? Maybe it failed thousands of times before our universe came into existence.

Free Will: Do we have free will, or are all our actions directed by external factors? The general argument for no free will is that society and our environments shape our experiences and therefore our brains, therefore controlling all our actions. The argument for free will is that we can choose what we do or don't do at many points, and could have always chosen a different path. A sort of combination of these is called soft determinism and states that we have free will because we could have chosen a different path if we had wanted to. I think it's probably true that we are slaves of our brains, but that doesn't mean anything since are brains pretty much are us. We can't stop holding people responsible for their actions without the world turning to shit anyway.

Metaethics: Are there moral facts? Basically, are our morals based on anything objective? Some say they can't be because morals are so different in different societies; plus, what exactly could a moral truth be and how would we know what it was? Others say that there are moral facts, that are set by God. I think morality is hugely influenced by society, based in human empathy. We think causing pointless suffering is morally wrong because we know what it's like to suffer (except psychopaths who don't really have morals).

There we go, six big problems in life solved in one blog (obviously my opinion is right /sarcasm). And I deem myself sufficiently prepared for tomorrow's exam.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Letters To People I Don't Know

It's the feeling you get
When you think that someone behind
Is watching you
Well I can tell you now
That someone is me
-Hit The Floor, Bullet For My Valentine


Dear guy who sat in front of me on the bus today,
Looking around, adding to your tag, ducking, then repeating the process was not subtle. There is no way the bus driver could have seen you where you were sitting, so who the hell did you think you were hiding from?


Dear girl who sat next to me on the bus today,
Why do you smell like fruit?


Dear guy whom I often sit next to in Philosophy (I think your name is Morgan?),
Please don't read so fast, I also find DnD rules more interesting than class discussions. Also, you have good taste in games, have you tried the Aether mod?


Dear guy with the cool pinstriped pants AKA Matt,
What hair dye do you use? We have the same amount of regrowth, but my hair has faded to dark brown while yours is still black.


Dear Keef,
Just because you have no social skills, no friends, and no understanding of anything that's even vaguely abstract doesn't mean you don't have to show any respect to anyone. Especially your lecturers and tutors who are patient enough not to kick you out. Why are you taking philosophy anyway?


Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.


xx

Tick Tock

The time bomb is ticking 
And no one is listening
Our future is fading 
Is there any hope we'll survive?
Still

We ravage the world that we love
And the millions cry out to be saved
Our endless maniacal appetite
Left us with another way to die

-Another Way To Die, Disturbed

Yesterday I finished reading the seventh book in the Maximum Ride series (Angel), and I've noticed two things:

1) The books get weirder and weirder as the series goes on.

2) The Doomsday Group make a good point

The Doomsday Group is the antagonist in this book, they want to save the world by killing all humans, replacing them with 'evolved' and 'enhanced' humans (genetic experiments). They believe that humans are destroying the planet and that Earth would be better off without them. On this point I have to agree with them. The genetic experiment part, not so much.

To be fair, we probably do need to evolve. We've screwed ourselves over by trying to fix everything and relying on technology. Instead of letting ourselves become naturally immune to things, we create medicines, leaving things to mutate and become immune to our medicines. Where's the logic in that?

Genetic experiments aren't the way to go though, considering we don't know what we're doing, and it's not natural evolution. Humans control enough already. Killing all humans would probably work, although domesticated animals may have a hard time. In theory anyway, I'm no psychopath, I couldn't condemn the people I love to death.

But I wonder which we'll destroy first. The planet, or ourselves.

On that note, go read the Uglies series by Scott Westerfeld. Similar problem, with another unethical solution. Plus he's my favourite author.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Eh

Pain
Without love
Pain
I can't get enough
Pain
I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
-Pain, Three Days Grace


I'm sinking again. And I'm too scared to ask for help.


What if there's nothing wrong with me, and I'm just pathetic? What if there is something wrong with me that can't be fixed? What if there is something wrong with me that can be fixed, but it changes me into something I don't like?


Besides, I hate counseling. I'm no good at talking to people. I can't help but feel like they're judging me, so I lie. I'd rather not have to struggle to explain why I do/feel things for no logical reason. Because they're forever asking why, and I don't know why.


I seem to be scared more too, I randomly start panicking and I can only attribute it to the crowds or my workload. I've been twitching more often too, but at least I don't whimper randomly any more. That was just weird. It's a little hard to function in the real world when all I want to do is curl up in a ball or run away.


I thought I was doing so well. I was actually happy for the first time in I don't even know how long. But no, I'm back to this. Oh well, I dealt with it before, I can do it again. It's really screwing with my Uni work though.


Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.


xx

This Is How You Remind Me

Kills, thrills, and Sunday pills

I'm on a mission to kill

Still

'Cause nothing thrills

I can't help missing you still

Well, I always will

-Hard Act To Follow, Grinspoon

Music is amazing. I could 'show my appreciation' or whatever by doing one of those 30 days in song things... But screw that. I shall just list some songs that never fail to remind me of certain people. Then we can play the 'guess who each of these relates to' game, where no one will bother to guess because my head is a scary place that no one except me ventures.

1. I Hate Everything About You- Three Days Grace

2. Seventy Times Seven- Brand New

3. Wake Me Up Before You Go Go- Wham!

4. Waiting- Green Day

5. The Middle- Jimmy Eat World

6. Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

7. I Won't See You Tonight (Part 1)- Avenged Sevenfold

8. Going Away- Goodnight Nurse

9. Welcome Home- Coheed And Cambria

Nine... what a horrible number to stop at... Also, yes I know half of them are restricted, but it's not like anyone's actually going to watch them so that's okay.

Okay, so only one of these is a good reminder really, and that one I really don't know why it's a reminder at all. I predict up to three will be guessed correctly, everyone should at least get the first one (well, almost everyone). 72,000 points for getting them all (or 8,000 for each one). Can anyone get more than Hailz's 7,500 points from the last 'game'?

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Confessions Of A Broken Doll

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold

I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me

You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name

I won't see you tonight

-I Won't See You Tonight Part 1, Avenged Sevenfold

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

I seem to be going a little blog crazy today. Either that or time is going much faster than you thought.

So, a confession. For most people this would be interesting. For me it's just going to be depressing. But that is what this blog is about so I guess that's okay.

1. You know all those stupid things I've done? Possibly not actually. I'm referring to specific stupid things this time. Such as the excessive amount of three different kinds of painkillers before school, the self-harm, the solo nighttime wanderings, the hanging out in the middle of the road... Well I obviously wasn't actively trying to kill myself, but I was hoping like hell I would accidentally. I'd like to say that my friends are what keep me going or something, but that wouldn't be true. If I wasn't too much of a wuss to try, I'm not sure I'd still be here. I've been doing a whole lot better for the last year or so, but that doesn't mean I'm okay exactly. I still have blades hidden around my room, and I'm not sure if I'll ever give them up willingly.

Well that was a cheerful end to these blogs.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

:o

I’ve fallen down

And I’ll rise above this

Rise above this doubt

-Rise Above This, Seether

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

This should be easy.

1. :)

2. :(

There, that's not confusing at all.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Distraction

I like the way you abuse my mind
Abuse me all the time

Paranoid your gonna leave me behind

-Joyride, Rooster

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Well this one could be taken two ways, the PG way, and the R way. Because I'm really bored today I'm going to do both. Which means 99% of people who read this will want to stop reading halfway, 'cause I'm seriously twisted.

So, here's the PG list.

1. Eyes, I really like eyes. Preferably of the green/brown variety, blue eyes tend to scare me for some bizarre reason. I can't resist big puppy-dog eyes.

2. Makeup on guys, providing it suits them. It don't know if it's the pathetic little fan-girl in me, or the fact that it makes them look somewhat girly (for want of a better word, a much better word), but it's yummy.

3. Attention. Just like I said for Day 3. I don't care what you look like or anything, if you hang out with me and talk to me I'm much more likely to like you :)

Okay, that was the not-creepy section of the blog. You probably want to stop reading now.

You have been warned.

1. Pain. Not all kinds, obviously, 'cause I'm still a wimp. But biting, especially on the neck, and cutting. It makes my mind shut up.

2. Blood. It's so pretty and yummy. And comes with pain. I'm much better than I used to be though, I used to get a little creepy when someone started bleeding in front of me. Like when I first met Emz and she cut her hand open, I had to go chew on a spoon to stop myself drooling.

3. Being tied up. Which is really stupid, 'cause I hate not being able to escape in any other situation. It's like alcohol, forces me to relax, kinda.

Too much information? Yea, I thought so. I did tell you to stop reading.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll. Or not, 'cause I'm a freak.

xx

Things That Make Me Go Ew

Don't get in my face
Don't invade my space
I'll put you in your place
I'll only tell you once
I'll never tell you twice
And this is me being nice

-Gasoline, Porcelain And The Tramps

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

I have no idea. This could take awhile.

1. Guys who think that telling me how hot my friends are is a good way to get me to like them. Sounds stupid, but it's been done.

2. Stalkers. If I tell you to back off, I mean it. It's not something I say often. Don't continue to text and call me for months after I stop replying, it's creepy, and next time it happens I plan to do something about it.

3. Games. I'm confused enough already, and I have a natural tendency to assume people don't like me unless they make it stupidly clear. Continuously. Seriously, I'm paranoid.

4. People who throw themselves at me. Especially when they're teenage girls. That just tells me that you're a slut with bad taste :P

These blogs are getting short. I may write another one. Just 'cause I don't wanna study.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

You Know What? Just Don't Read This One

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake

You're always a true friend

And I don't deserve you

'Cause I'm not there for you

Though I wish I would be

-There For You, Flyleaf

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Totally reusing a song, 'cause I have to leave in three minutes :P

FIVE!! Only five?! These numbers are getting small. I always hated having to choose only a few people to mention, like for your 'Top 10' on MySpace and Bebo. I always changed it to 'Top 2' and just had Devon and Kimmy there.

1. Devon. Of course.

2. Ali. She gives me girl time, and makes me pretty for parties :)

3. Hailz. She makes sense out of craziness, like maths.

4. Lincoln. He occasionally stops being a dick for long enough to give me a hug when I need it.

5. Alex. That's not too weird/scary is it? I think it is, but there's no one else who can be mentioned singularly... He is much too nice to me.

Seriously, five. That's a horrible number. I'm liking this 10 Day thing less and less, lol.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

More Mistakes

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone
Or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret; hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know?

-Dirty Little Secret, All-American Rejects

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

 There are many things I wish I'd never done, however there aren't many I particularly want to bring up :/ Remind me why I decided to do this again?

1. Vodka and Lift. That is a combination that never ends well.

2. Cheated. Obviously.

3. Unblocked 'All Others' on MSN.

4. Grown up. It's over-rated.

5. Left things 'til the last minute.

6. Lied about various things.

There, that wasn't vague at all :) At least two people who read this know many of my stupid mistakes anyway of course.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Inside The Mind Of... Me

And I don't want the world to see me
Because I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

-Iris, The Goo Goo Dolls

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Narrowing this down to seven is going to be a challenge I think, I spend most of my time thinking about things over and over again.

1. Please don't see me please don't see me please don't see me...

2. Don't ask me first, ask me any question but that one, he's going to ask me isn't he, oh crap that was my name.

3. FUCKING BUSES!!

4. How the hell do my nails keep getting so dirty?!

5. Hey, she's yummy...

6. I really hope no one knows what I'm thinking right now.

7. Well that was incredibly stupid.

In conclusion: I like to be invisible, I get annoyed at silly things, I'm a creep, I'm paranoid, and I'm stupid :)

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

8 Simple Rules

Over and over, over and over

I fall for you

Over and over, over and over

I try not to

Over and over, over and over

You make me fall for you

Over and over, over and over

You don't even try

-Over And Over, Three Days Grace

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

This one seems like a bit of a bad idea. Seems like it would encourage creeps and all that, and I really don't think I need to give them more encouragement. Oh well, I did commit to this so...

1. Attention. I am pathetic, talk to me! It's not like I'm gonna start a conversation with you.

2. Protect me from spiders. They are after me, please kill them.

3. Talk to me, not at me. Otherwise I will assume you are near me by obligation, and eventually disappear.

4. Remember things about me. I like to repeat myself, but having proof that someone has listened makes me feel special. Once again, I am pathetic.

5. Don't block my joy. I am insane, deal with it. If I want to skip instead of walk then let me, even better, join me.

6. Persistence. Which is a stupid thing to say, because that's more often annoying than endearing. So uh, be persistent, but don't push it.

7. Don't make fun of my taste in stuff. I know I like a weird combination of music, I know I wear odd clothes sometimes, and I know I like stupid girly books. Leave me alone, at least I have my own opinions about something.

8. Save me from scary social situations. Let me hide behind you if I don't know anyone else at a party, or hang out with me until I'm drunk enough to socialise normally. One person is easier to deal with than a crowd.

Note: These things aren't a recipe for success, I still have to actually like someone for them to get anywhere. If I don't like you, please leave me alone.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Window

[Me] You are delusions of my mind

[Reason] And so we are, we're all a part of you

[Me] Am I a part of some design?

[Reason] The one design is in your head

-Day Two: Isolation, Ayreon

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

I appear to have started a trend with this 10 Days thing, I feel pretty awesome right now.  Also, that song up the top there is pretty cool, Devon found it when I told him to find a song for this blog. You should go find it on YouTube.

Now to try to think of nine things about me that you don't already know...

1. I often don't know what I'm on about any more than you do.

2. I have so many imaginary conversations with people that sometimes I forget what I've actually said to them.

3. I enjoy washing my hair.

4. You know how people say, "It's more sacred of you than you are of it"? Well, I'm the it.

5. I'm really good at holding grudges, but I tend not to show it.

6. I'm only pretending to hate everyone. I'm just jealous, and it's easier this way.

7. Often the 'dumb clueless person' act isn't an act.

8. I will never be happy with the way I look, no matter what anyone says.

9. There are perfectly logical explanations for many of the things I say/do.

Not entirely sure what I'm going to write for Day 10 now, lol.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Jumping On The Bandwagon

Yes I'm wishing my life away

With these things I'll never say

-Things I'll Never Say, Avril Lavigne

I'm much too lazy to steal the 30 Days of Me thing from Hailz, so I will attempt this 10 Days thingy I stole from some random on DeviantArt:

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

 Like all the other things I decide to blog about, it will probably never be finished. But oh well. Here's day one.

1. I honestly don't understand why someone like you would hang out with someone like me. I turn to you with stupid problems, and half the time I ignore your advice, even though I know you're right. Did I mention you're awesome?

2. Thank you. Those few real talks we've had were awesome. Too bad you act like a dick most of the time. I totally understand why though.

3. I probably should have listened to you (well, I did listen, I just didn't do anything). It's not that I disagreed or anything, I just don't have the motivation. Just having someone notice, and even make some sense of it all helped a lot. Even though I highly doubt you remember, thank you.

4. I've already told you this, but I don't think you believed me. I'm sorry, that was just as stupid as expected. And it was my fault, not yours, you idiot.

5. Stop being so paranoid. The whole world isn't out to get you, and neither am I. I love you, why would I hurt you intentionally? I'm just stupid. Also, you should be mad at me, not him.

6. That was me by the way.

7. There's no way you'll ever see this, but thank you. You helped me to sing in front of people properly for the first time. I wish I'd known you better.

8. I love you, but you make me feel so old and mature. And that's just ridiculous.

9. You have cool pinstriped pants. I'm sorry if my staring disturbed you.

10. I really wish you'd talked to me, instead of acting like nothing happened. It would've made life a whole lot easier, and maybe I wouldn't still hate you.

So... Yea. Ten things I'd never say to people's faces. 50,000 points to whoever can guess them all. Providing you're not Devon, 'cause he knows them all.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx

Maybes And Mistakes

Is that what you call a getaway

Well tell me what you got away with

'Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish

I've seen more guts in eleven year old kids

So have another drink and drive yourself home

I hope there's ice on all the roads

So you can think of me when you forget you seatbelt

And again when your head goes through the windshield

-Seventy Times Seven, Brand New

Making a mistake sucks. Being a mistake sucks more. But hey, that's me. I dig myself a hole and forget to build a wall around it so I don't bring everyone else down with me. At least I'm good at something.

The worst part is the aftermath. Where I can't stop thinking about what happened, what could have happened, and what should have happened. This goes on for a long time. Then it's all brought back when the next mistake happens.

'Mistake' is such a loaded word. It implies something that you did by accident. As opposed to something you did, then realised it was stupid. It also implies something that you learn from, and don't do again. Or maybe it's just me, maybe these things aren't mistakes at all.

And maybe, just maybe, these stupid thoughts don't have anything to do with self destruction. Maybe I meant to do these stupid things. Maybe, for once, I'm not a fake.

But I doubt it.

Stay tuned for more Pathetic Tales From A Broken Doll.

xx